Kiss That Motherfucker Goodnight.

You fail at being human.
Your bestfriends a fucking joke.
I can't even say one good thing about you anymore.


I've never felt so strong.


"cause when i fly solo i fly so high"

Everyones always packing my bags,
Just throw another Godamn dart onto the map.

I need to find the trick to scaling these walls.

This weekend was really really good. I am a freebird, I fly.
(until I am stoned to death)
There is little that seems to come between me and what I want.
I want to call my dad its his birthday.
I wonder if he knows its his brithday.

I'm searching for something,
What?
I couldn't tell you.

Mannn, I couldn't be feeling better right now.

I got a phone date with Bobby & Sam in a half hour, and its so freaking awesome to talk to old freinds. Fuck dat, just friends, not old anymore.
Allie picked me up and her Casey, Jeremy and I got free frozen yogurt, and a pie! (Thankyouthankyouthankyou Elise!) Jeez, seriously could anything be better?
I'm ready to wash away shit that doesn't matter.
Stupid grudges? Gone.
Deminished relationships? Recovered.
Unless your one of those treatninalikeabigjoke people i'm so down for a new face, old friend, new face, new friend.

I'mm so excited for this weeeeekenddddddd.
I wannaa limp away from it!
I wanna be soo wornn outt I can't see straight Monday at schoool.
HIT ME UP.


I post alotaaaaaaaaaaaa freakinggg blogss ah!

Free Cheese

Wow, what a good day today was (:

It wasn't as warm as I had hoped but a lot of good times were had.

Went to the harbor with Donalld, Bam, Tails and myy lil Zacharyyy.

Haven't seen him in too longgg so it was goodgoodgood.

Cheers For:

• Ducks
• Bacon Pizza
• Nsync, Good Charlottle, BSB, Phill Collins
• Starryy colorfull cars
• Free cheese for no reason
• Petting dogs, but not really
• Cosmic Brownies
• Dryer vents on the chilly streets

And above all greatgreatgreat peopleeeeeeee!

Finnally hanging out with people that DON'T suck!

Not to mention school was good too, minus detention!

I love our little morning crew.

Luster Lost.

People mean less, and less. I don't waste my time with anyone's indifference. I couldn't tell you who really matters anymore, WHO has become irrelevant along with WHAT because I create nothing.
Hey motivation, light a spark up in me.
I just sleep the day away.
I'm happy,
I'm half dead.

I'm trying to be a trooper.

Friday was good. Minus school. I volunteered to have my piece critiqued by the class because I needed the presentation points. The poem previous to my critique was titled "I Hate You." It was a mindless stream of consciousness filled with dull language, and countless cliches, and the entire circle talked about that piece for a good ten minutes. Mine came last after a very well written portion of a short story (kudos to you dude) and the room just fell completely SILENT... After a lot of awkward glances, the critique ended with my teacher continually trying to convince the class that it was a strong piece.
"So we agree this was a strong piece correct?" She must of said it three times before someone decided that the most intelligentt criticism they could muster was a grammatical error in line such and such and said nothing further on it, no praise, no polish, no nothing. I'm not sure exactly why this happened. Regardless I've lost all faith in any of their abilities to write or critique.

Today was good. I woke up early with a bloody crusty nose, but very happy. Even if the latter part of last night was a little crazy with my mom I'm glad we worked through it and got on good terms before we both passed out. She also listened to my ideas for my new project and she seemed really into it, which is always good. My little Delilah was the first thing I saw and heard. She was all kindza meowing because shes fat and always hungry. Shes gotten a lot better
(aka mad lovingg meee)
I spent the day with my family roaming through antique and consignment shops, and getting crazy like we doooo. We also went to a pet store and I met a really adorable bunny with a lot of personality who really enjoyed nibbling on my sweater. Tails picked up some siqq treats for our little sugar gliders and my aunt bough some fish that she nearly killed later that day when she slipped and almost broke her face on the pavement. My mom cooked me dinner and talked to me about college, and huge stuff it was good, made me feel more comfortable about it all. Then Little D (Delilah) wore my ass out playing with her. Its 11 on a Saturday night and I'm ready to hit a siqq movie and pass out.

Take It Easy (Love Nothing)

Well, I'll tell you one thing it been a hell of a fast but almost unbearable week. Because my parents are away and don't trust me to host a home alone (maddpartyyyzzzbrahizllez) I've been sent off to middle-of-nowhere. Its not too far from Perry Hall, just far enough to make everyone not too thrilled to come get me, not to mention its just plain awkward to tryn escape out of here. So most of these days minus tuesday(which was its own little nightmare) I've been here with my bestfriend in the whole wide world locked in a room with a pink laptop and a tiny tv on which we have watched mulitple movies and countless episodes of wifeswap. Were watching sleeping beauty as I type and I'm planning on re-picking up Twilight and re reading it. I got to have a great "Talk" with Jimmy this week and it helped me out so much. I can't say i'm DOING any better but I sure as hell am feeling pretty good and thats good enough for me right now. Some things are hard to grit your teeth through but I know its the best for me. Jimmy just reminds me of everything I refuse to believe or acknowledge.
So tonight I have "Its a Circus Out There" to finish up writing for class tomorrow, and I'm thinking about starting my novel tonight.
BIG THINGS ARE ABOUT TO HAPPEN DON'T BLINK OR YOU WON'T SEE IT COMMING.

I am pretty content, excited for the weekend, and for this Vacation Hell to be OVER.
Next week things will go back to normal. Out everyday with the people I lovelovelove.
And maybe the weather will IMPROVE as well. (:

Yo, I think I'm gonna go ho-em

Well I had a really great weekend. The only thing I can say is: "Thank God for the legit people still left in the world." People that will make you and a dog a PP&J even if a loaf of bread and a container of Peanut Butter is all they have. Not to mention show you a really good time. Slowly my opinions on people as a whole are improving. I hit a gold strike for meeting awesome new faces lately, I just hope it keeps coming.
What a great weekend in general, next could be just as good if I let it be.

Supposidly us Baltimorians have really strong accents, and there are no Dennys in dirty Jersey.

Who woulda known!

Flowers That Fail to Return the Coming Season

So just recently I came up with the motto I'll be living by, and honestly so far things haven't ever been working out so good. You ready? Its pretty simple.
"If you don't care, whelp neither do I." (accompanied with a shrug of the shoulders)
I think I do a pretty good job of playing idc frequently, but rarely do I ever mean it (until now).
I'm not going to wait around for people to become. You either are or you are not, and if you are not, give up because trying so hard to get people to hangout, or have fun, or like me in general is so out of my mindset for a while. I refuse to pry anyone open, beg for anyone's attention, or desperately try and hold people in my life, I'm done. So here is the deal! Lets be friends! Or lets not, but be sure to recognize I'm about 0% tolerant when it comes to weird bullshit these days, so keep it to yourself. (:
Anyway! Moving on, today was very nice. The weather was amazing, and I got to share it with some of my favorite people. I had to stay after school to help set up the Fourth Annual Perry Hall High Art Auction (hallahh!) Anyway, I sort of ditched the set-up crew after a while and took off with Em and Ben who kindly took me to Chic Fille so I could fill myself with greasy chicken. After an overwhelming meal, Allie arrived and we set off to get the Jimson! We ended up having to wait in the parking lot for over forty five minutes because someones slow as shit but as soon as the car was filled with the sweet fishy smell of Papa's restaurant I was ready to get back to the show! Not to mention Emily's new Nikon (insert awesome model number here) was confusing me, and all my pictures were ugly. After we picked up some treats from the dollar store we headed back to the auction and made it on time. Everyone's work was phenomenal especially Don's pheasant photo (love you) and Allies lighthouse which also seemed to get a lot of attention. My piece was bought! Yay accomplishment.
The rest of the evening went on without incident and though I was sad to leave without seeing my babygirl Kara in Pippin I had to get over here to my moms to see my lil Delilah. Shes getting better, and seems to keep me laughing. Shes all youth. Crazy curious, prepared to attack at any moment. My mom's friend Rick came over, and brought some ice cream from coldstone (hellz yeah) and we watched some really stupid scary movie.
Right now my allergies are freaking! I'm convinced i'm allergic to cats.
My moms trying to read me bible verses, I'm more ready to pass out than ever.
Tomorrow should be amazing. I am so ready for the next chapter.

Spring Approaching

Well, I finally caved and got a blogspot. I can imagine I'll have less posts than these kids with such exciting lives, but I'm okay with it! Next to tackle is facebook!
My overwhelming head cold is beginning to subside, and I think it has something to do with all the positive energy today. I listened to nevershoutnever! (Me & My Uke) all day, and pretended it was much warmer than it was (oh please go away winter). I talked to Chelsea today also about how this summer is going to be and I'm hoping our guesses are legitimate. I really want some old people back in my life, and keep these new ones where they are! It could very well be the best summer yet.
Lauren and Sean came and got me and we went to get our first Rita's of the year! Sean's a fatty and couldn't seem to reach Rita's before hitting the Subway next door, but at least Lauren and I got icee treats to celebrate the semi-good weather!
We spent a million years in front of Rita's in the car discussing what we would buy with 91 million dollars

• A HUGE house (pref like the one in Forest Gump)
• A gigantic trampoline bed for amazing sleepovers!
• The entire Forever21
• A plane & John Travolta as the Pilot
• The Guy from Ps. I love you
• A sexy Escalade for me, that I can run over cars over with
• Laurens Lime Green Rabbit
• Sean's weird river house with a garage filled with Corvettes
  
  Not to mention, just buying a a lot of shit for everyone we know. Your staring at the next BIG (but small) MILLIONAIRE! (:

So after seeing way to many guys with fanny packs, and weird people in their cars we decided that we'd drop by a lonely Zakk's house. Of course we find him creeping out on his Xbox live but we make him ditch his room full of Yugio Cards for a living room movie sesh! We planned on Jurassic Park but Forest Gump was much more appealing! (according to a winking Sean)
So we piled on the couch and Zakk Grant curled up in a ball on the floor. I really want to finish Forest Gump, its such a great movie and I havent seen it in so long. Zakk and Sean passed out, and after trying to wake them both only Zakk recovered. Theres nothing better than dimly litted rooms full of conversation, laughter, and MacCounts.
Not to mention i'm finnally getting my septum redone sometime next week!
Get Syked, for getting unsick, seeing my mom, and preparing for the best summer yet.